I want my left shoulder back. I don't just want a few days without pain. I want to move freely, lift with confidence and stop planning around a joint that has been with me as a problem for more than 30 years.
That's the backdrop to what I experimented with next. Given these predate the website, there are two separate experiments in this update. The first was about whether I could experience the benefit of a future procedure before having it. The second grew from a much bigger question about belief and rapid healing. I've done other PSYCH-K® work on my shoulder along the way. Again, these are are separate experiences.
Let’s start with the first one.
Can I collapse time and experience the intended result before the procedure?
I had spent years with Joe Dispenza's work. I'd read Becoming Supernatural about 16 or 17 times. For roughly 18 months I did his guided meditations daily, with more on and off outside that stretch. One idea stayed with me: that you can experience a future outcome as if it has already happened.
I'd had a consultation with Dr Abhi in the US about a procedure for my shoulder. I believed it would solve the problem, but the travel, cost and COVID restrictions meant I hadn't gone. So I wondered, if there is a way to experience no time in the quantum field, then time can be collapsed. So what if I could do the belief work on this, and around having already had the procedure? Could I experience the benefit of the procedure right now?
I explored that question through PSYCH-K®. It wasn't a fleeting thought. I spent time with it and did the work. The pain eased, quickly. I was encouraged by that. But the tingling, weakness and restricted movement were still there. I could feel relief without having the full use of my shoulder back.
By the goal I'd set, that first experiment failed. It changed the pain; it didn't give me the strength and freedom of movement I wanted. I haven't found a reliable date for the first experiment in my notes, and I won't invent one now. But what I can say is that it left me with space for a sharper question.
The question that became the healing stack
I had read and heard accounts of people experiencing rapid and sometimes complete physical change. Remission of stage 4 cancer, crippled people stand and walk, many of those accounts are extraordinary. They strengthened what I understand about epigenetics and that belief can change matter. It’s what I have taken from Dr Bruce Lipton’s work, Joe Dispenza and others.
So my next experiment stemmed around the question: What does someone have to believe to heal fully, rapidly, immediately? Naturally, what can I adopt as my own for my own shoulder?
This became a project of its own, and the first of a series of this kind. The healing stack was the first stack I built. A quick interjection here, a stack is my label for a block of beliefs on a topic that are indexed in such a way that it makes navigating them for the PSYCH-K® facilitation easy. In each of the 6 stacks I have developed so far, the beliefs range between 407 and 1735.
It was designed around the broader question of instant healing, not around my personal shoulder history.
By mid-August, this had become a massive research project. The core healing stack held nearly 3,000 candidate beliefs connected to 128 examined case and research records. I wanted to understand what people needed to believe for rapid, complete physical change to happen. And what would happen if I internalised those beliefs myself. As well as believing what I learned that the seven practitioners on the subject believed. This was bigger than a few simple affirmations.
I eventually worked with the healing stack for myself. The final stack had become 1735 beliefs. And the effort getting to that was real. I was pursuing the question of what I would need to believe to have the permanent result I wanted, not simply trying to feel a bit better for an afternoon.
The immediate result from the first session is that the ache that had returned disappeared. It seemed I had often slept in an awkward position for the restricted range of motion, sometimes because one of my daughters had climbed into bed diagonally and left me nowhere sensible to put my arm. So that was a meaningful change in how my shoulder felt. But I still couldn't call it fully healed. Less pain isn't the same as full strength or movement. I hadn't had imaging or a measured test showing a change in the joint.
Now while the pain had disappeared, the process that I'd gone through of internalizing these was set, along with an additional process that I had developed to query the stacks I was building. It was based on a broader understanding I had developed, specifically: the lens in which you view the problem influences the question that you ask, which influences the PSYCH-K® session. I call this stack querying the “Wide Lens”.
After spending some time experimenting with this stack for over a few sessions, there were some deep reflections on a couple of key beliefs that surfaced after I had internalized them. Now with hindsight, these beliefs opened me up to actions and circumstances that I would have otherwise not usually noticed or taken. I will explain next.
So I kept the question open: had the experiment succeeded, or had it changed one part of the problem while another part still needed attention?
A conversation that changed my next move
Last week of September, I saw a shoulder-and-elbow specialist on TikTok who said he worked with Major League Baseball. He offered a free one-on-one consultation. I took up the offer for the call. He seemed to understand the kind of shoulder problem I was describing and had a program for me, but it was around $6,000 and entirely online. I was weighing it seriously, but I had some questions.
The call did give me a practical idea: if someone could guide me remotely, could I find a person locally here who understood the shoulder just as well, and could work with me in the room?
So I started looking.
My wife kept raving about the infrared sauna at her gym. And pushed me to find some place to experience one so I tried a recovery place nearby called The Good Place (good name!). I cooked myself in its ridiculously hot Finnish sauna and tried the cold plunge. It was an experience, but $28 a week for recovery alone was hard to justify when I had not rejoined a gym yet.
FYI I'd been riding a spin bike and using kettlebells at home, but full training had been sitting on the back burner after quitting the gym early this year. So I started looking for a gym membership that included a sauna and cold plunge. I love finding awesome deals!
At the gym I found nearby that has a sauna, there was a personal trainer who specialised in returning from injury. I showed him the imaging and the doctor's letter. He tested my movement and developed a program. Serendipitous! I have had 3 sessions with him now. And during the second session he expressed how shocked he was by the increased range of motion I have already got.
During this second session, something clicked for me. I can believe through my whole being that instant healing is possible. But belief alone cannot guide me through a movement I instinctively avoid because of how it feels. When a position feels uncomfortable, the body naturally wants to stop, or subtly compensate to protect my shoulder. But having someone there who understands this physiology side means he can see these moments and help me move differently through them.
I wasn't in pain starting the program, though I could still feel friction, tension and restriction in range of motion. But I have been finding space in the movement. That has felt encouraging. It was also very early. Three sessions don't establish a lasting result, and I don't have a measured range-of-motion or strength change to report.
What I know, and what I don't
I don't believe I would be doing this training now if I hadn't done the work on my beliefs. That is my experience of the journey. It is not proof that the belief work caused the trainer to appear or repaired the structure of my shoulder.
What became clear to me is that belief work and guided physical work can sit together. One helped me explore what I thought was possible. The other is helping me work with the movement in front of me. I don't need to pretend I know exactly which part accounts for each change.
As of 29 October, I have had no morning pain from sleeping funny and I am already noticing my shoulder sitting lower, and moving differently. My shoulder was still restricted, and there is more to do to rebuild strength. The experiment remains open. The next honest update is whether that progress holds as I keep training.
I'll keep you posted.